Apr 12, 2021
Speaker: Gabriel Al Romaani
My Dear Brothers and Sisters here we are again, Ramadan is coming and I’m sure last year in the same position with the same thoughts here we are again Ramadan is Coming. This Ramadan I’ll do it, this ramadan i’m going to change, it’s gonna be this one. And yet here you are again today. Listening to this and saying, oh my God wasn’t I just thinking the same thing last year. Yet did I really change? Not so much. And a lot of us feel sad, we feel sometimes depressed, Why Am I not Changing? Why Am I not able to finally make that one year where I’m just changing forever. Why? I keep hearing the lectures.
That one of the indications of acceptance of ramadan is that you change after ramadan, yet I didnt change or I Changed for 1 month, 2 month and I go back to where I was. Why can’t I finally change once and forever. For good I wanna change I’m tired of myself I’m tired of how I feel. I’m tired to always just drag myself and just make the bare minimum. And I’m tired i want to be saved, I want to be better I Want to be a good Muslim but here I Am again, waiting counting the days of ramadan and afraid, that ramadan is gonna go, I’m gonna feel very good I know Insha Allah Ya Rabb. That I’m gonna do well in ramadan, I’m gonna fast, I’m gonna feel good, my iman is going to be high.
Yet I’m gonna be scared as soon as I reach the last 10 days. And towards the last 10 days that that’s it you know what I mean, I’m going to lose it. What Am I gonna do? Like I’m gonna be done. Again I’m gonna go back to the same position that I was before, wishing. For another ramadan, just wishing that Insha Allah I change, but I can’t change.
Why should I feel bad? What should I do? I’m depressed. I’M Depressed. I’m depressed because of my sins, the darkness of my sins is overtaking me. I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m very very tired I’m losing hope. I’m losing hope, what should I do? Allah SWT tells us in surah AZ Zumar verse 53 : “Qul yā ‘ibādiyallażīna asrafụ ‘alā anfusihim lā taqnaṭụ mir raḥmatillāh, innallāha yagfiruż-żunụba jamī’ā, innahụ huwal-gafụrur-raḥīm.” : Say O my servant who have transgressed against themselves by sinning, do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Do not despair of the mercy of Allah, Indeed Allah forgives all sins, indeed it is He who is the forgiving, the merciful. I’m here to tell you Don’t Lose Hope. I don’t know how many ramadans you’ve been in the same position. Losing Hope.
All I’m telling you, that never lose hope Allah is telling you that He will forgive. Don’t lose hope. So yes you are in this same position again and you might be in this position next year, and the year after. And how many Ramadans Allah SWT will give you Insha Allah till the rest of our lives we experience ramadan. But we’ll remember. Whoever fasts Ramadan with firm faith and conviction Allah will forgive their sins. The same thing whoever fasts, whoever prays ramadan Allah will forgive their sins, All you have to do is have faith and firm conviction Just Believe. Just live today, you are here today Ramadan is in front you. What past, cannot be changed what happens or comes, you don’t know you have no control over, today. You’re welcoming Ramadan today with open heart, remembering that you don’t lose hope in Allah Everyday is Hope every minutes is hope every second is hope. ISLAM is Hope. This is how we live take it one day at a time don’t let the shaytan make you lose hope, Have Hope. Ya Ibadi” Oh my servant my slave who has transgressed against him or herself do not despair of Allah’s Mercy. Alhamdulillah welcome Ramadan. I will not despair of the mercy of Allah, I will do it as if its the first time Insha Allah.
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